Team Vibes

Life makes me feel lots of things and without you, I feel lonely and I really want you back here dear. Welcome back dear

~ my first click after googling, “welcome back quotes”

Life does, indeed, make me feel lots of things. I imagine death to be much duller.

“Contented” would be one. Moving from the ocean made me feel whatever the opposite of that would be. So, I moved myself and my family back to the ocean. Now I feel contented. Calmer, cooler, happier. The ocean has a vibe. I hate to admit it, but it is true. Far be it for me to get all existential and start talking like a hippie, but… maybe they are on to something.

We moved from our beachside condo on December 15th (or something like that), and I lost my inspiration. We moved back to a different beachside condo on (or abouts) June first. I felt freer almost immediately; wanted to write again. Sometimes you might hear stories of writers secluding themselves to some Bahamas villa to complete their next works. Sometimes I might hear that and think it sounded ridiculous. How could a little scenery change your outlook that much?

Well, I guess I’m on team vibes now.

“Good Vibes Only”, is what one of the girls’ pieces of wall art says. Instead of moving to our oppressively-hot, rotten-fish-smelling house in Coronado, I should have just read the god damn sign and stayed at the beach.

“Trepidatious” is another thing that life has made me feel. Once or twice. That feeling was what drove me to the quote website.

Wao I just heard the news of your come back and I am really happy that those beautiful days will be back. Welcome back, dear.

~ that same site, therandomvibez.com

When I began this blog in September of last year to document our move to another country, I never planned on anyone but myself reading it. Hardly anyone reads it still, but they generally are people I know. And they talk to me about it!

Can you imagine having people whose opinions you honored commenting on your internal dialogue?

“Hey, bud! Heard what you were saying to yourself last night, and just really thought you were being a little harsh.”

“My favorite of your thoughts was the one where you were obsessing over typewriters.” ^_^

It would be horrifying. It’s bad enough that I have to live with this brain; I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemies.

Well, the blog is kind of a version (albeit lightly edited) of that. It had been a long time. I felt feel rusty. Sometimes I feel like I am writing with someone over my shoulder. Not just me, and not just the computer. Can you imagine the pressure of a successful author? The writer, their screen, their publicist, editor, audience, die-hards, casuals, etc. No wonder they seclude themselves in some island on some beach.

Good vibes only.

It’s ok. You just forgot who you are. Welcome back.

~ the only valuable nugget from that damned site

It’s good to be back.

I have so many stories to tell.

I visited my old home. I lost a bunch of weight. I saved someone’s life. I became a professional blogger. Kinda.

I felt lonely and scared. I felt down and anxious. I felt heartbreak.

I also felt determined, triumphant, and extremely proud. It’s been a ringer.

And I’m glad to be back.

good vibes only

amen